Just what will the new year bring?

We got a camper, a pop up camper to be precise. It was Jimmy's gift to himself this year, he has always wanted one. As you can probably tell from many of our pictures we love to spend time outdoors, hiking, biking, camping, fishing, you name it. So for 2009 my resolution is to get healthy.....mind , body and spirit. I have always focused so much on how I looked but I have come to the point after having some struggles with anxiety and depression last year that looking good really doesn't mean much if you don't feel well emotionally, physically or spritually. So that is my challange. I have already lost a bunch of weight, but depression is not the way to do it trust me. I recently started seeing a Naturopathic Dr. who is amazing. When I first started feeling ill, I went to several Dr.s convinced that there had to be a physical cause for my anxiety, for the heart palpitations and fatigue. I did not buy that it was strictly emotional. I asked for blood tests and was told I needed to see a therapist and that blood tests were a needless expense (by 2 reputable Dr.s mind you). Finally my OB did a blood test and said I had a very high estrogen level he put me on the pill and sent me out the door. Long story short my new Dr. order a full blood panel and discovered that my vitamin D, calcium, Zinc and Iron levels were all very low, among other things. All of the above mentioned deficiencies are linked to anxiety, depression fatigue and insomnia. Mind you my problems manifested acutely in August which is when I saw the first Dr. I went months with little or no sleep and began to feel severely depressed for the first time in my life. I feel that all of this could have been cut very short if I had a blood test way back then. I am angry about it, I think I will write letters. Anyway what does not kill us makes us stronger right? So back to what this year holds, I no longer have to obsess over when the baby is going to come, she is here in the flesh and she is yummy!! This year holds so many possibilities for me. I have been trying to have a baby in one form or another or wanting one desperately for the better part of 10 years. It is time to move on. I have totally ingored myself for so long, this is my year. My year to be a mommy again, my year to get truly heathly, my year to fosus on the things most important to me....my family, my health, my spirit. I want to be the vital and happy person that I know I can be. We are going to use the camper for our maiden voyage this weekend. Wish us luck on the weather. Pics are of our recent trip to Benton Falls and a few others... by the way Ms. Aubrey is learning so fast, she can say her name, Mama, Dada (or Baba), GuGu (Zach), Zach, I love you, bye, hi, Mamaw, Papaw, More, eat, Milk (she can sign those too), dog, please, thank you (she stil says sha sha which is chinese for thank you), and others I can't think of at the moment. She is very affectionate and funny, with a little bit ot Ms. Independence in there. She is very attached to me, but loves her daddy and brother very much. We got very lucky, I know some people struggle to adjust initially in adoption and we have all done so well, she sleeps and eats well and is just in general a good girl. God has truly blessed us and we were humbled by our experience in China. For anyone who reads this that is open to adoption, there are so many children in need of loving homes, it would break your heart...anyway enough rambling....Happy New Year!!!